Well i am back at school with mixed feelings. It is always bittersweet the first couple of weeks because you miss home and such, and with the and such, i miss a certain person. but thats all that needs to be said. ANYWAYS! i am living in an apartment with one of my best friends, Ali. she is an amazing person who genuinly cares for me. i truly appriciate that. i should tell her that more often. i have been getting better at expressing myself! that has always been a difficult thing for me. i dont do emotions. i have them of course, they just like to stay inside. anywho, i love where i am living! i get my own room! sure, i have to sort of hike to and from school, but its honestly not that bad. only when the snow is coming sideways at your face. but the other day i was walking home, it was bright and sunny outside, and the snow just sparkled. i couldnt help but to marvel in the beauty. its so cliche and i always feel silly for saying it, but God truly knew i needed to see that beauty at that moment. i am so grateful for the small miracles in my life. the past couple of months i have learned a lot about myself. like the most i have learned in a long time. i have learned that its ok to let people know how you really feel. i would say i am a people pleaser. i just dont like to have people mad at me or not like me. i am SURE that there are people who dont like me, but its not because i was rude to them. it is probally because i annoyed them or was obnoxious. back when i was younger i was an extreme BRAT! no joke. i will fully admit it. i am not proud of it, and if i could change that part of my past i would. i was bossy, rude, obnoxious, a bully, and a million of other negative things. i'd like to say i have improved on a lot of those attributes, but i have no clue. each day i just keep trying. wow that was deep. not really, but a little too deep for my comfort.
so tonight i wore a beanie for the first time in my life. that was super fun. pictures to follow. umm i felt super artsy. hahaha but then my friends and i had no where to go, soooo no one really saw me. thats cool though. i had fun adventuring.
i think i have figured out what i would like to do with the rest of my life. i would love to be a literary agent. basically i would be an agent for books. i would find potential authors, read their work, if i think it is good, pitch it to a publishing company. i love reading and sharing the stuff i read with other people if it is good. so yeah. that is what i am working on. and that is also why i am taking a shakespeare class and a young adult lit. now i am taking them at the same time. prob not my smartest move. 38 books. just for those two classes. in 3.5 months. IM CRAZY! haha but its not that bad. at first i was really intimidated, but i am actually really excited. i have always wanted to explore the works of shakespeare. and i love young adult novels. if anyone needs suggestions, i have read seriously more than a hundred young adult books, i could find the perfect match for you.
so that is my life right now. i am hoping to go snowboarding soon. we will see.
seriously,
kimmah
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