You know how when you are holding a casserole dish, or a wine glass (in my case a sparkling cider glass), or a mug or anything glass. Fragile. And then you trip. The glassware slips out of your hand and for a moment you are suspended in time. Waiting. The glass twinkles in the light. You are stranded in motion, waiting for the consequence. Will the glass shatter? You think of your surroundings. Tile or wood or carpet or vinyl? Five foot drop. Four feet? Is there an attempt to catch it? Or would you simply just hit the glass more and further secure its demise.
All you can do is wait. Wait for the silence to end with a shatter or a thud. Either way, you dropped the glassware. Whatever outcome comes, comes because you slipped. Comes because you thought you could hold on to five things at once. Popcorn in one hand. Glassware in another. Your teeth securing a Kit Kat bar. King size. A soda balanced in your armpit and a blanket draped over your head, dragging on the ground.
And this moment of suspension, this moment where your life either goes from an accident to a rough landing or an accident to a shattered attempt at stability, is never ending.
You are stuck until gravity takes hold, ripping you slowly.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
Sunday, February 1, 2015
time...
Time is a subject that when I think about it a lot...it hurts my head. To preface this, I believe in and eternal God and to Him, time is not a factor. Think about that. Time not mattering. It is a thought that just makes smoke come out of my ears because my brain blew a circuit. So when I think about our Earth life, our time to be tested, this time truly counts. Since I believe in eternal life, a life that has no regard for time, this instance is my only timed time. Bear with me...if I can bear with myself.
So if this time we have on Earth is the only time that matters, why are we wasting it? I have been thinking about this a lot in the last few weeks as I started as a student teacher, which is going alright beeteedubs. Half of my day is spent at school, 7:30-3:00. That is time that I give for my students, my future job. But when I get home, that is my time. So what have I been doing?
3:15-3:30 - get home
3:15-4:00 ish - eat a bowl of cereal while watching a tv show
4:00 -5:00- workout
5:00- 9:30ish maybe watch a show while I make dinner, shower, see friends.
9:30ish-10:00ish - read scriptures and get ready for bed
10:30 (hopefully) - go to bed
That is my life and I think it is pretty good. Some days I am better at keeping to this than others. Add in the occasional trip to the grocery store. But I have realized that as I have a busier schedule, the priorities of what I want in my day changed. I don't have time to watch tv for hours. I don't have the energy to stay up super late and get up as early as I do. I have to choose what is important.
The steady thing that has been an importance in my day is working out. This may seem crazy to some people because by 4 I am already wanted to go to bed or just sit. But I have found that my night is far more productive when I workout. Working out is like taking a nap. I do not care that it is obsessive of me to have to workout every day. It is something that I need and I believe that that's a good thing. It's not like I am doing drugs or whatever. And yes, working out doesn't make me stick thing, but that's not why I do it. I do it because I want to live longer. I want to be a good example for my nieces and nephews. I want to be able to be as hardcore as my dad and mom when I am their age. I want an active lifestyle. And I am willing to work for it.
Okay. This wasn't meant to be a workout post. But...you all know how I am on tangents...I believe that my students are catching on to that as well.
The point I am trying to make is make time for what you find important. What I find important and what you find important are going to be different. And that is just fine. As long as you are not wasting your time. I am still working on trying to be better with my time, it is pretty difficult. It is so easy to just sit and watch show after show, but my time is limited. Your time is limited. And if we are judged for our time here on Earth, we cannot afford to waste it. Our limited time is judged with what we make of it.
This also goes with whom I spend my time with. I do not want to spend time with people who are not, this sounds harsh, important to me. I am at the point in my life where I do not have to do things I do not want to, for the most part. So I will chose what I want to do. The only exception of this is when it comes to church things. In the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, there is a lot going on at different times of the week, including and especially Sunday. I am willing to give my time up for the church, for my God. In those cases, it is up to me to change my attitude.
That's how this whole post about time got into my head. I was going to an activity, a Sunday dinner put on by my church, and I was walking there alone. It kind of made me mad that my friends and peers did not come. This event was sponsored and prepared by the people we go to church with every Sunday. The least we could do is support them for a quick bite to eat. It is a simple act that I do not understand why people do not support. Sure, it may take a half hour out of your schedule. Yes, the food might not be great. And of course, you might be sitting by yourself at a table. But that point is that you support. You are telling people that the time they spent in preparing the dinner or activity was well worth it. Maybe it is just me, but I feel that if you are able to go to an activity, you go. Change your attitude. Maybe change into your big girl panties. Just go. Because that time, dedicated to supporting someone who is trying to serve you, is time well spent.
As I was walking, I also was thinking about my time and how much I dedicate it to the Lord. The answer I came up with was too little. I need to shift things around in my schedule to include Him more. I do not want a graph to come up at the end of my timed existence with social media or tv towering over my time spent dedicated to Him. That would be a very depressing graph.
So go out there. Spend your time wisely, because you will not get this time back. Ever. Our timed test on Earth will end. And when it does. What kind of graph do you want to see?
As my grandpa Turley says:
"Time flies, but remember you are the navigator."
*I think this is the quote? may not be exact...but the meaning is the same.
So if this time we have on Earth is the only time that matters, why are we wasting it? I have been thinking about this a lot in the last few weeks as I started as a student teacher, which is going alright beeteedubs. Half of my day is spent at school, 7:30-3:00. That is time that I give for my students, my future job. But when I get home, that is my time. So what have I been doing?
3:15-3:30 - get home
3:15-4:00 ish - eat a bowl of cereal while watching a tv show
4:00 -5:00- workout
5:00- 9:30ish maybe watch a show while I make dinner, shower, see friends.
9:30ish-10:00ish - read scriptures and get ready for bed
10:30 (hopefully) - go to bed
That is my life and I think it is pretty good. Some days I am better at keeping to this than others. Add in the occasional trip to the grocery store. But I have realized that as I have a busier schedule, the priorities of what I want in my day changed. I don't have time to watch tv for hours. I don't have the energy to stay up super late and get up as early as I do. I have to choose what is important.
The steady thing that has been an importance in my day is working out. This may seem crazy to some people because by 4 I am already wanted to go to bed or just sit. But I have found that my night is far more productive when I workout. Working out is like taking a nap. I do not care that it is obsessive of me to have to workout every day. It is something that I need and I believe that that's a good thing. It's not like I am doing drugs or whatever. And yes, working out doesn't make me stick thing, but that's not why I do it. I do it because I want to live longer. I want to be a good example for my nieces and nephews. I want to be able to be as hardcore as my dad and mom when I am their age. I want an active lifestyle. And I am willing to work for it.
Okay. This wasn't meant to be a workout post. But...you all know how I am on tangents...I believe that my students are catching on to that as well.
The point I am trying to make is make time for what you find important. What I find important and what you find important are going to be different. And that is just fine. As long as you are not wasting your time. I am still working on trying to be better with my time, it is pretty difficult. It is so easy to just sit and watch show after show, but my time is limited. Your time is limited. And if we are judged for our time here on Earth, we cannot afford to waste it. Our limited time is judged with what we make of it.
This also goes with whom I spend my time with. I do not want to spend time with people who are not, this sounds harsh, important to me. I am at the point in my life where I do not have to do things I do not want to, for the most part. So I will chose what I want to do. The only exception of this is when it comes to church things. In the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, there is a lot going on at different times of the week, including and especially Sunday. I am willing to give my time up for the church, for my God. In those cases, it is up to me to change my attitude.
That's how this whole post about time got into my head. I was going to an activity, a Sunday dinner put on by my church, and I was walking there alone. It kind of made me mad that my friends and peers did not come. This event was sponsored and prepared by the people we go to church with every Sunday. The least we could do is support them for a quick bite to eat. It is a simple act that I do not understand why people do not support. Sure, it may take a half hour out of your schedule. Yes, the food might not be great. And of course, you might be sitting by yourself at a table. But that point is that you support. You are telling people that the time they spent in preparing the dinner or activity was well worth it. Maybe it is just me, but I feel that if you are able to go to an activity, you go. Change your attitude. Maybe change into your big girl panties. Just go. Because that time, dedicated to supporting someone who is trying to serve you, is time well spent.
As I was walking, I also was thinking about my time and how much I dedicate it to the Lord. The answer I came up with was too little. I need to shift things around in my schedule to include Him more. I do not want a graph to come up at the end of my timed existence with social media or tv towering over my time spent dedicated to Him. That would be a very depressing graph.
So go out there. Spend your time wisely, because you will not get this time back. Ever. Our timed test on Earth will end. And when it does. What kind of graph do you want to see?
As my grandpa Turley says:
"Time flies, but remember you are the navigator."
*I think this is the quote? may not be exact...but the meaning is the same.
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